11:05 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
I don't understand how can people be so irresponsible at times?! Maybe this is not a responsibility but can you(s) at least show some courtesy? Please give me all the information that i need. Each and everyone of your information is very important. One of you went MIA for a super duper long time and i can understand why i haven't got the information. Everyone knows the reason to this MIA and now you have to be another one. -.-" Personally, i think you seem to have carried things too far. Technology is advanced now even if you can't reply me in that manner but there are so many other channel of ways! Is it so difficult for you?! %&*%&%&*^*^*&! Call yourself a ***! -.-"
4:13 PM
Friday, February 22, 2008
Poly life really flies in a blink of eyes. But the feeling is different. I still get the same feeling when i first entered poly and met all the darlings. I think until now all of us still behave like newbies. =x Year 3 is coming and soon it will be our graduation day. Graduation day sound and seem scary to me. Don't really wish for it to happen but yet hope i can finish this course as soon as possible. I wonder how will the life be for the 11 of us when we graduate? Will all of us still stay in contact and will the bonding and relationship still be the same? No answer to the future. Spell this word
H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S!!
Yes! Finally, the long term break that i have been looking forward to is here. ^^
I shall leave exam result behind my back for the time being.
I know there is no point in worrying so much.
Can't wait for monday to come.
Because i know i will enjoy myself to the fullest.
11:42 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
I can do nothing.
Now i can only wish upon the star for some kind of miracle. Seriously, i think it's a gone case for my CD paper.
Guess that is what everyone said because the paper is really too difficult.
And also like what wendy said..
All of us seem to focus on the various disabilities that we neglected other aspect.
But i just have some problem adjusting my mood back to normal.
I am very, yes very affected by how i perform in my CD paper.
I mean what happen to me!!
It really shouldn't be this way.
Wanted to cry yesterday because i am so worried about the end result
PLUS
When hui wen said teacher said the disability was cerebal palsy,
I was on the verge of fainting and crying.
I already leave some blank when i am doing the paper...
And now i have to get this wrong and that wrong.
It seems like wrong everywhere.
Yes, people console me about my CD paper saying i will pass.
Like maybe our group storybook will help to pull me up.
But i for my assessment on "Educating Peter"..
I got F.
So, by right, i should work doubly hard for the paper so as to ensure a pass.
Honestly, i feel that i did.
But i don't know why i still perform so far below average.
This morning when i woke up, it seems like i feel more like crying.
But tomorrow i have another paper.
So it doesn't seem like the right time to get emotional.
People always said "It's over. Even if you think about it, it will not help to change anything."
Yes, i know. I know the sentence PERFECTLY well.
But i think my heart rules everything that is happening to me or around me.
8:38 PM
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Too stressed up with child development. =( I guess that is how everyone is feeling maybe even for those who are prepared some time ago? =x There is so much to memorise, so much to read, so much to understand but yet there is so little time. 24 hours a day doesn't seems to be enough for me. I am not slacking here i have been copying notes for almost the whole day that i feel so restless. Hence, i deceided to blog and then continue. But then i haven't even completed copying half of the topics that teacher asked us to study. -.-" There is always a limit space in our brain that we can allocate for studies. There is just too much things for us to remember and can anyone teach me the method of storing all these information in my brain? Hmmm.. Maybe not. I desperately need someone that can teach me how to store these valuable information in my brain AND also ensuring that the information and details are in the right slot. This is to ensure that i won't get mixed up and once again... MISINTERPRET the questions and lost marks. What a bad term to get it over and done with.
8:03 PM
Friday, February 15, 2008
Phobia is such a frightening thing. It just keep lingering around you and it's always in your heart until something triggers it to make you realise that you are feeling scare. This is the exact feeling of how i feel with child development exam round the corner. Actually, it's next monday. I couldn't remove the image that keeps flashing in my mind. I am afraid that history might repeat itself. I know if it really do, i will not be able to withstand this blow. Yes, i will study hard but some times it's not about all that. It's way beyond that.
12:55 PM
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
I AM SUPER DUPER HAPPY TODAY BECAUSE I GAVE MY FIRST KISS TO RYAN. I went back to the centre this morning. Part of the reason was because I need to ask my teacher for help with regards to the 3 activities in the Math learning corner. Another reason was because my mentor called me this morning and said that i need to go down and sign my timesheet as i have not filled up the last 3 visits and she need to hand up by today. I also went down with the intention of asking her if she need any part timer and she said YES! I told her that i can only start work on the 21st and she said okay. XD Half of me is looking very forward to working together with the children as well as the teachers there. Half of me is also scared. Lols. Maybe this is a good chance for me to determine if i really want to be a childcare teacher after i graduate. If yes, it's good for me because i can start work immediately! [well, maybe i will rest for a few months before working, working life is tedious. =s] If no, maybe it's really time for me to set aside some time for myself and think about what is it that i really want and how should i go about to achieve that. Okay, enough said about this, i was suppose to talk about my happy incident.
Initially, i wanted to check with my teacher if she has seen a purple pouch with a lot of templates inside as i couldn't find it in my Math learning corner. Then, i saw Ryan. So i said "Hi" to him. He was playing with blocks and then when he saw me, he said "Eh.. Teacher! Hi!" I was elated. =) Then, my teacher told me to search for the purple pouch in another classroom because she said the last time she seen it was at the shelves. So off i went and Ryan, following behind me. Then, when i found my pouch and templates, he point to one of the book at the library corner in the class. So i squat down to his level. With me looking at him and vice versa, he came forward to my face, directly and slowly. I was taken aback! From his gesture, it was very obvious that he is attempting to kiss me, right on my lips. My first reaction was move back a few cm and then i asked "Ryan, you want to kiss me?" Then he nods his head. Then i said "Okay" *Argh* So we kissed, right on the lips followed by a hug and saying the 3 magical words. XD This is like a miracle to me and of course, it's definitely a wonderful and unforgettable one. I still remember when i am attached to this centre since Year 2, semester 1, i was like "Oh my god!" Because the place was having a mini chaos? Lols. But i remembered Ryan vividly. He was the only child that keeps running about in the centre, he was the one who always seem to be getting into trouble and he was always the one that resort to violence when it comes to solving problems. But now, he is totally DIFFERENT. He has really grow up by a lot. I am not talking about this in term of physical, but it's more on his thinking and the way he handles things now. He is such a sweet and nice boy now, though not totally but at least to me and all the teachers in the centre [even my mentor], he is the BEST. When i was waiting for my bus at the bus stop, i couldn't help but to smile. I keep smiling.
P.S Huiwen, KUDASAI do not get too agitated. Lols.
Labels: What a HAPPY day XD
